Prince Harry has revealed he’s “always felt different” from his family and believes his mother, Diana, Princess of Wales, “felt the same”.
Harry, the Duke of Sussex, made the remarks during a livestreamed interview with author and trauma expert Dr Gabor Mate on Sunday morning (NZ time) to discuss Harry’s groundbreaking memoir, Spare.
The pair discussed living with loss and the importance of personal healing, while the Duke also brought up how he related to his mother over feelings of not fitting in with the rest of the royal family.
“I certainly have felt throughout my life my younger years I felt slightly different to the rest of my family,” he said.
“I felt strange being in this container, and I know that my mum felt the same so it makes sense to me. It didn’t make sense at the time I felt as though my body was in there, but my head was out and sometimes it was vice versa.”
Harry also said his wife Meghan Markle, the Duchess of Sussex, saved him from royal life, claiming he was “stuck” before she “saved” him from himself.
“None of the elements of my life now would have been possible without me seeing it for myself,” Harry said.
He added Meghan is an “exceptional human being” and is grateful for the wisdom and space she’s given to him.
In the live interview, Harry revealed his fears ahead of going to therapy but said it helped him “break free” from his family.
“One of the things I was most scared about was losing the feelings that I had of my mum. I thought that if I went to therapy it would kill me and that I would lose whatever I had left, whatever I managed to hold onto of my mother and it turns out that wasn’t the case. I didn’t lose that it was the opposite,” he said.
“I turned what I thought was supposed to be sadness to try and prove to her that I missed her into realising she just really wanted me to be happy, and that was a huge weight off my chest.”
The Duke of Sussex also said marijuana “really helped” him mentally.
He said taking cocaine “did nothing” for him, but added, “marijuana is different, that actually really did help me”.
Another topic the interview touched on was the conflict in Afghanistan. Dr Mate said he did not align with the West during the conflict.
Harry revealed some British soldiers were not “necessarily” supportive of military efforts in Afghanistan.
“One of the reasons why so many people in the United Kingdom were not supportive of our troops was because they assumed that everybody that was serving was for the war,” the Duke said.
“But no, once you sign up, you do what you’re told to do. So there was a lot of us that didn’t necessarily agree or disagree, but you were doing what you were trained to do, you were doing what you were sent to do.”